Beagle Mafia

I made my vows to my best friend and soul mate. Through the years, certainly our vows have been tested but still we remain deeply in love and connected. We have experienced for better and for worse, for richer and for poorer, and sickness and in health. We have been tested by situations, other people and even by each other. Yet, here we are...stronger than ever. On the outside, we may look like your average couple but there a very deep connection between us. There is a lot of conversation, a lot of bonding and a lot of understanding. We know the ins and outs of each other and we balance one another.

That is enough of the mushy gooshy stuff. Capo and I were discussing this morning that almost all the people including our wedding party we no longer associate with. In a way its kind of sad but in another way its always nice to figure out who your true friends are. My wedding was small, intimate and beautiful. I would not have traded a single aspect of it. We didnt want a big fancy smancy wedding. All we both wanted was to have great time and enjoy the company of our closest friends. Looking back, most of these people were not our closest friends but at the time, we thought differently.

Our wedding was done in a very traditional way with a ceremony and a reception. Our ceremony took place overlooking the beach which is exactly how I always pictured my wedding my whole life. It was a windy yet beautiful day. We said our vows, he kissed his bride and together we strolled right into our reception.

Our reception was probably the best time I ever had in my life. We ate, we danced and just partied. My reception was more than I even imagined it to be. The best part was that we interacted with all our guests the entire 4 hours. There was no "hi, bye, thanks for coming". Each and everyone of our guests were able to spend time with us. It was absolutely perfect.

Often times when I get invited to these big expensive fancy "couples have gone broke" to pay for weddings, it saddens me that receptions are rushed through. Brides and grooms rarely get to spend time together as they are busy greeting the 15o people that they have invited. These couples rarely get to taste the food or even enjoy their open bar. Its just one formality to the next. I will never understand the concept of big weddings. To each their own and however someone wishes to spend their money and day is up to them. I just know, I would not have changed a single aspect of my small wedding. Well, maybe I would have hired a different videographer but that is for a different post.

So tonight, we celebrate by a going to a nice dinner at The Melting Pot. I think that fondue is probably the most intimate way to share a dinner with someone. Tonight, we will discuss these past 6 years and more importantly we will talk about this next coming year. This next year hold a lot of changes for us. We are both hoping that next year will be a new beginning while we embrace these last 6 years. There is nothing that I would ever change but we always have room to grow and change. There is saying that I always think about it when it comes to my marriage "This all started because two people fell in love......."

4! I am just getting over the shock, well I dont think I am really over the shock just yet but each day I get a little more use to the idea. This would explain my brief absence here.

The Boy was not planned at all and I got pregnant with him on birth control. We were young and so not ready but we made it through. Then we tried for 5 years after he was born and we unable to get pregnant. Last year, we decided that it would be too big of an age gap and we could smell the sense of freedom in 9 years when he turned 18. Occasionally, I would get the baby itch, but I would scratch it and move on. I made a decision to go back to school and earn a degree so that I could start a career. I was really looking forward to entering the work force again and finally doing something for myself more than anything. For the past 8 years, I have been a stay at home mom and I would not change it for a single second. However, there comes a point in your life when you get a little selfish and want more of a title for yourself other than a SAHM. :) Marking down "homemaker" in the occupation box gets a little old. I have since graduated to "student" but I was hoping next year I could mark "medical biller and coder." I even decided to go back to school full time vs part time literally the day before I found out this surprise.

I started having sciatic pain which I havent had since giving birth to The Boy. I then realized that I was a couple days late and even tried to justifiy that I must of wrote it down wrong. So the next morning, I found the one test I had tucked away. I was not expecting the result of "pregnant". It was surreal, something I wanted for such a long time and here it is NOW. NOW, when its not the best time, NOW when things in my every area of my life are beyond chaotic, NOW that I became a full time student, NOW that I traded in my suv for a sports car, NOW that I could feel the sense of freedom, NOW? Really? This is happening NOW?

I pretty much let the cat out of the bag immediately because after all this was not planned. I didnt feel like hiding it from friends and family. It would have become quite apparent. I did have it confirmed with my doctor so now begins the 2 week wait for for the first sonogram.

I have tried to figure out what was so different now than the past 5 years when we were unsuccessful. The only thing that has changed is that both Capo and I have lost a considerable amount of weight. That is really the only significant change that could have landed us in this position.

In the end, we are excited still a little shocked and learning to accept each day that this is happening and our life plans need to be altered but regardless, this is a blessing.

A baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bank balance smaller, home happier, clothes dirty, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for.